Filmmaker Statement

My reason to tell this story is largely born from regret. As a woman born Hard-of-Hearing, I've always had this feeling I was not worthy of love. After years of personal work, I've come to realize that this feeling of unworthiness stems from my cultural upbringing and shame around imperfections, both physically and mentally. As someone whose loved one experienced depression that eventually led to late onset bipolarism in secrecy due to shame, I’ve always believed that my ex-husband’s behaviors, including his aggression towards me, were never his fault. This compounded with my naiveté and being ill-equipped on how to deal with such a challenge eventually led us to our divorce. I feel so much regret from our ending together, and although it was the best outcome for the both of us, I will forever have that story serve as my wound as well as my muse. In DOSH, which means both "flaw" and "fault" in Hindi, I wanted to create a world in which a Hard-of-Hearing South Asian woman (mother)