Filmmaker Statement

I first wrote “Postpartum” when I was three weeks postpartum with my second child. I was experiencing intense anxiety and had extreme worries about her safety. I was obsessively checking our baby monitor every night to make sure she was breathing and still alive. One night my husband said, “It’s okay. You don’t have to look at the monitor. She’ll be okay.“ And that’s when I realized my level of fear, worry and anxiety about her was always going to be different than my husbands. I began to wonder how many other women live with this suffocating anxiety. What started off as a story about anxiety during the postpartum period soon turned into an exploration of the darkest thoughts I’ve had about postpartum. Four years later, I gave birth to my third child and I felt called to be a voice for women who experience some of the darkest thoughts they have ever had during postpartum. Instead of shying away from those thoughts and sweeping them under the rug… I wanted to put them on full